the bad and the happy thing...s

I know this life is not always good. But how if you wanna make a better life but you did not get it ? well well well … that is what I feel right now .
I can not hold this anymore . I wanna have a better life .

(praying) “ GOD PLEASE GIVE ME THE GOOD LIFE “ (anyway. I’m not freakout when I praying. This is just an parable)

Huuuuuu … I know , to have a good life I must effort effort effort and effort hard . and I am trying , and now I am give up . not really give up, just like take some rest to continue , AGAIN . haha, that is so tired .

Ok, let me show you what the bad things that I have for now ,
1st : I have a boyfriend and sometimes it is complicated for me because actually I am not ready yet to have a relationship for now but I love him…so how ???
2nd : I still love my ex-boy . ok this not funny . I know I am wrong because … yea I realize it . ): . no… no … no… do not blown up to me , sometimes a girl who newly broke up with her boyfriend always feel like me, right ?
3rd : I do not like be a driver , even I just be a driver at home. But it is not my JOB . I am a STUDENT!!
4th : I can not find my best friend, yet . if I have a best friend I will shared my story , everything that happen to my life. I really wanna have one.
And many more ……

I won’t tell you the happy things because I know it will make you jealous with me . hahaha I’m kidding .
I don’t have a happy things, I just have a problem for now.

But I will trying to solve my problem (although, I don’t know how to solve it) .
Hoahhhhmm … time to sleep .

PS : I met my ex-boy , and happy to saw him (: . really happy . very . quite . truly .

Bye … wanna sleep.
Sweet dream (:
LOVE YOU GUYS